Almanac
Almanac
I don’t deserve this, and it won’t be like this forever.
His fist is big but my gun’s bigger.
He wants a fight, well now he’s got one and he ain’t seen me crazy yet.
She’s got a Rock N’ Roll side when you get her agitated.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
I’d settle for a slowdown.
This storm speaks for me.
At peace, more than before, that’s all i’m sure of.
When will I realize you don’t care about anything but yourself.
kokopelli.
Never underestimate life’s capability of becoming real hectic real fast.
Did such strange and unfamiliar words really just leave my mouth?
I love you.
And the countdown begins.
History repeating.
Waisting my time in the waiting line.
What goes around comes around.
Anyone but you.
It’s not me, it’s you.
I will always have more to say. Will I ever be comfortable in my own skin?
Sweetheart.
With or without you.
My first taste of love: bittersweet and green on the vine, like strawberry wine.
Funny how a melody sounds like a memory.
Keep it up, I know you can. Just keep following the heart lines on your head.
She’s a wild one, with an angel’s face. She’s a woman-child in a state of grace.
You’re really lovely, underneath it all.
All the riches, baby.
hors d’oeuvres.
Walking on broken glass.
Falling in love again.
So I held a newborn at church today, and I feel I must take note of this, because it really affected me. So tiny, so light, so lovely.
“Somebody who loves me for me.”
Baby I’m a fool.
Oh…. I finally have an actual purpose in this life. I’m a mother.
Love everyone.
If you’re so smart, then tell me why are you still so afraid?
Via is where you belong.
I’m a rebel: soul rebel.
Stop chasing shadows, just enjoy the ride.
Do you believe in what you see?
Sometimes good-bye is a second chance.
Day by day.
Something’s wrong when you regret things that haven’t happened yet.
Says you, and that’s not saying much.
Lonely prodding.
Sweet-talking’ ☀ of a 🔫.
Life, please never get out of my grip.
Unpredictable path.
Hell bent to make it on her own.
Hopeless dreamer with stupid and hopeless dreams.
There’s no one left to save me. I am the only one.
Heavy in your arms.
I don’t want for you to be happy. All that I want is for you to come crawling back.
“Just remember, your kids can hear you better if you yell.”
Cut the jazz?
A midnight’s illusion.
Camden Scott Mathis
So often, I want to break things.
Any fool can make a baby, but it takes a man to raise a child.
Mind drips.
Can we pretend I’m amazing?
Picking up the pieces.
Now I ain’t saying it’s right or it’s wrong, but maybe it’s the only way.
Your Spanish lullaby.
If not now, then when?
That boy’s just a walkaway Joe.
But it was just another lesson in life.
Check the rhyme.
RE: Sweet talking’ ☀ of a 🔫.
Dream on, but don’t imagine they’ll all come true.
Ask no questions, and be told no lies.
Progressions can’t be made if we’re separate forever.
Pursuit of happiness. Always.
Count the headlights on the highway.
Love sick hopeless romantic.
For my lover, for my lover.
Still my guitar gently weeps.
Hopeful promises.
“Out of that contradiction, against unfathomable odds, it’s you - only you - that emerged. To distill so specific a form, from all that chaos. It’s like turning air into gold. A miracle.”
-Jon Osterman
Hurt.
Revenge- not from God.
Everything I ever wanted.
^seriously. I hope you never doubt whether you’re loved or not.
I need to make my own decisions.
RE:RE: Sweet talking’ ☀ of a 🔫.
I’m on borrowed time right now.
Everybody’s starry-eyed. And nobody knows.
Happy birthday, happy baby.
A kiss with a fist is better than none.
Soul mate.
Around the world around the world around the world around the world.
Oh God. Where are you?
Forget control before you realize it doesn’t exist.
On that note, forget everything. The sunlight hurts my eyes.
I cannot even concentrate on my own thoughts in a world that’s on the verge.
True love.
Hey, don’t write yourself off yet.
I was a pharmacist once.
On the daily.
Ring my bell.
She’s in love with the boy.
Try not to take it so personally.
Out of sorts.
A moment of violence.
We’re fated to pretend.
I miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world.
We can fight our desires, but when we start making fires, we get ever so hot. Whether we like it or not.
Adrenaline crush.
I think I thrive on stupidity.
Real life imitation.
Because it’s my only weapon.
I have obtained a tooth of wisdom, but not yet a pair of balls.
“That’s all it takes.”
So uncomfortable.
Here’s the part where I lose my hair and wits.
And mind.
Love always remains.
At first I thought I just didn’t like your friends, and then I realized that you’re all the same.
Shut those eyes full of fight.
Big man touched my belly, and made my night. :)
Crystallize.
Hey, hey what can I do?
Not content.
Never content.
Better together, like a dark cloud.
On and on, an endless debate. Countdown’s begun.
There is no value more important to me than honesty.
Tonight I love you, tomorrow go away.
Just keep following the heart lines on your head. Keep it up, I know you can.
“Well that’s the one thing we’ve got.”
Drive. (Incubus)
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there.
Find yourself another place to fall.
I feel like I’m falling for you.
It’s better to say too much, than to never say what you need to say.
Oh no depression.
Hard to love.
There’s a baby boy in my belly.
Liar, liar.
God bless the world, it’s so glorious.
Once a fool, always a fool.
I have been blessed.
I am wildly confident at the moment, and I’m loving it.
La la love.
I just can’t see myself having these moments with you. “The world is a beautiful place.”
I’m pretty alright at being right.
Too close for comfort.
With or without you.
If that’s what you want. (It’s not what I want.)
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
The only one who has never taken my bs.
I hate emotions.
Two fools that fell in love.
We’re like fire and gasoline, I’m no good for you, you’re no good for me.
Ex-lover boy.
I just want to be your everything.
It’ll be nice.
A spark in my nerves, and fingers in my mouth.
I know I thrive on stupidity.
Apologetic enticement.
I’m only gonna break break your break break your heart. And vise versa.
Time well wasted.
Baby, I’m lost. Baby, I’m a lost cause.
Do I have what it’s gonna take to keep on keeping on?
How lovely when the person you love loves you back.
There’s such a charm about you.
It fills my head up. It gets louder and louder.
And then suddenly….
For someone who hates everyone, I sure do have quite the ‘love everybody’ mentality.
Old newspaper, sometimes.
Remind me.
I don’t wanna get away.
You giving up on me.
I don’t want to love you if you don’t love me back.
It’s like you hit me with lightening.
Aren’t you glad I think so too?
I think I thought.
Is the grass always greener on the other side? Sometimes it’s just purple. But what if it’s black?
I need tangible. I need stable. I need love.
I am no angel. And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
She’s got a little bit of devil in her angel eyes.
Can anybody out there see me? Cause’ I can’t seem to see myself.
Neon.
Another universe or reality, sometimes.
Running with kites, or anything else that will do.
Remind me of that too. I almost forgot.
I’m trapped.
I hate this.
Put me in another place and time.
Live for the moment. It’s only gonna bring you down.
These small hours.
Via.
Learn the piano. Paint your walls blue. Furniture complete.
I’m cool with the whole baby thing. I just wish the process wasn’t so painful, and uncomfortable, and destructive.
I am the queen of organization. 👑
Distracted.
Enjoy the ride.
This kind of peace of mind.
Lover boys.
Are you really that insecure?
Whatever will be, will be.
Get ready, get set, don’t go.
Or, take offense if you’d like.
So find yourself another place to fall.
Anything could happen.
Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate.
It’s the heart that really matters in the end.
One more time, with feeling.
Loner life.
Control yourself. Take only what you need from it.
No time to think of consequences.
Love you, just the way you are.
Whatcha’ say.
“I wish I didn’t know now what I didn’t know then.”
Never mind.
I’m scared of myself, my own emotions, more than anything.
There is a thin line between love and hate.
A word with the sunshine soldier.
I forgot how damn psychotic you are.
Every time you go.
Your Spanish lullaby.
Show me Your glory….
Don’t think. Don’t blink…
It’s too late.
Cause’ i’d rather pretend I’ll still be there in the end.
Fall in love with my intentions and I.
Dainty less.
For the thrill of it.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
She tied you to a kitchen chair. She broke your throne, and she cut your hair. And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah.
Lovers love, lovers lie.
Or, lovers love, liars lie.
Red, red wine.
Falling in love again.
Living might mean taking chances, but they’re worth taking. Loving might be a mistake, but it’s worth making.
Oh hopeless romantic.
Fun for me.
I find myself best at night or earliest in the morning. When there is nothing to be done, and I am alone.
It’s nice to forget sometimes.
Uncertain perhaps, winding valley.
Not so sure what to do now, except wait it out, I guess.
You can never really bury yourself, can you?
Losing my way.
I’m never gonna dance again, the way I danced with you.
I hesitated… Why?
I just can’t win. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what else to say. I’m talking to you now, but I promise that you feel so far away.
I hope you are who I think you are.
I guess I’ll die another day.
Should’ve all worked out, but it didn’t. She should be here now, but she isn’t.
My loves.
I want to own.
When the truth is found to be lies, and all the joy within you dies, don’t you want somebody to love?
Wouldn’t you love somebody to love.
Stupid boy.
(Born)
I love you and I love you.
Love song from the mountains.
Inner voices.
I’m glad you were able to pick up what in putting down.
Normalize breast-feeding.
In my Tennessee mountain home life is as peaceful, as I make it.
Underneath the cow hide lies a lady longing for love.
Sucker fish.
Life’s not that simple down here on earth.
Tune in, get up.
Good love is hard to find.
I got that full moon fever.
Love is a long, long road.
Baby, well, I can’t help but be scared of it all sometimes.
I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand
Love yourself, and him. The rest can fuck themselves.
At least I have my dad.
The joker ain’t the only fool who’ll do anything for you.
Good looks.
Loved you once, love you still.
Always have, always will.
… I just remembered who you are. You suck. Now what?
I have your fucking kid.
I’m being taken over by the fear.
Cost and benefits of you.
NTS: next time make sure you take note of why exactly. ^
I don’t ever wanna be alone.
Sundown.
NTS: Listen to Happy, that might answer your question.
Because being good gets old, and being bad brings consequences.
Darling dearest lovey dove gumdrop.
Nothing short of God above could turn me away from your love.
I just can’t put out this love.
Maybe I’m dreaming. Come wake me up, whoever you are.
You gotta wake up, gotta open your eyes. You gotta wake up, it’s time to realize.
God dammit, mom.
Come as you are.
It’s funny, because I actually love her.
In the end, we will only just remember how it feels.
So let me give your heart a break.
I walked into the room dripping, dripping in gold.
Baby I’m not like the rest.
She’s gonna marry that boy someday.
As long as you love me.
And I keep crawling back to you.
It’s the end of your life. Act like it.
Soundtrack of my life.
Like a fool, I fell in love with you. You turned my whole world upside down.
I’ll always remember you at my window, my love.
Push it to the limit.
Teach your children well.
I don’t know. I just don’t know.
There isn’t an inch of this town you and I haven’t surfaced together.
Can’t see past Friday night.
Some times are better spent and passed.
I see your logic, I guess. Appreciation comes after the fall. But glasses prescriptions only last so long, till your vision gets blurry again…
I’m forever yours, faithfully.
Feelings, boy.
Camden, you’re not my first love, but boy are you the strongest.
Confusion never stops, closing walls and ticking clocks.
I’m so tired of being tired
As sure as night follow day
Most things I worry about never happen anyway
Bravery.
If I could write a letter to me.
Bitter mature.
Come crawling out of the woodwork, mystery.
No one changes. We’re all the same as we’ve always been, and we always will be, really.
This life is more than ordinary.
Something good coming, it has to be.
Despite all my rage, I’m still just a rat in a cage.
Some sort of comfort in a special dosage of melancholy.
Take time with a wounded hand.
I hope you take the road less traveled, and I hope you find the courage to grow.
The only way to do things is perfectly, or you might as well not.
I’m all talk and you know.
NTS: Also listen to Heart Skips a Beat.
Believe it or not I kinda miss high school.
Everything changed so fast.
I really know how it feels to be stressed out. When you’re face to face with your adversaries.
Best friends.
His name is Camden Scott Mathis.
Don’t marry him till you marry him.
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth.
Family love is forever.
The soul is a fragile thing.
Best friends - nothing more, nothing less.
I have faith in God, hope for Johansen, and I love the both of them.
You and me, and the devil makes three…
I’ll always love you.
Sleep dep.
Touch me, I’m cold.
And I love you, because of that dependence. And because it’s my fault you’re here. And because you’re mine.
Wife material.
It’s hard to find comfort in things anymore.
I think it’s kinda sad, but it’s worth it.
I just want something more. A deep love, burning, engulfing.
People with heart do exist.
Sweet.
I wish I was prettier.
“Your a tough guy. You’re a big, strong tough guy who likes pacifiers. There’s nothing wrong with that.”
Jane Eyre “I need to be loved, but my independence is more important.”
Loved you once. Love you still.
Always have. Always will.
Momma knows.
I wanna be loved like that.
Don’t you know that all I’ve ever wanted is to be loved?
I think I forgot.
Holy trust issues.
Wow, I hate everyone. And especially my uterus.
I’m a loser, baby. So why don’t you kill me?
This feels so wrong.
a beaut.
As sure as night follow day
Most things I worry about never happen anyway
Stop chasing shadows, just enjoy the ride.
I am Sybil, and I’d like to give each one of me a name.
Downtempo-thinker, she is Auspices. Bird-watcher. Belongs in via.
Reggae-babe, she is Abigail. A pleaser, who also pleases herself. Observer. Different caliber. Now nostalgic.
Seditary-slob, and she is Tara. Unattractive, pitiful. The unfortunate truth.
Productive-Petty, she is Bellicose. War-like. Strict in her words and actions, she gets things done. I see her for the shortest time. Judge mental.
Eccentric-gal, and her name is Jen. What is wrong with her? Who knows, but she’s very selective with in front of whom she shows. Da life I lead.
Wanna-be, her name is B. Yearning, observing, she is all in one, and you know. Your love’s a drug, and sometimes I wish we’d never met.
What’s my age again.
“You know, they’re opening up traveling to Cuba? By the time he’s 18, he’ll probably be able to visit the homeland.”
“I thought you didn’t like Hispanics? Mom tries to pretend like he’s not half Cuban.”
“What? No, as long as he’s not Mexican. I like Cubans.”
This is why I love you. (Description of Mr.Scott, wish I saved it)
I don’t wanna be alone.
Waking on a tightrope.
Cigarettes in the cinema club.
And cigarettes, in general.
You don’t know him like I do.
In other words, back off.
Or maybe it’s time to try on some shoes other than your own.
I wish I knew.
“You’re not one of those breastfeed in public ladies though, are you?”
I just hope this isn’t me not willing to give up the past.
As sure at night follow day, most things I worry about never happen anyway.
“Funny joke.”
I’d rather be comfortable, but thanks anyway.
All in the trials.
I guess I wanted you more.
Draw Your Swords and give me chills.
As a friend, as an old memory.
I want to make memories.
Hey baby.
Doing Time.
The most powerful force in the universe is compound interest.
Productivity feeds or fuels the soul.
Scar tissue that I wish I saw.
Killing Loneliness with you.
Thriving on stupidity is not always as fun as it seems…
A lover’s lie.
That’s Tera bull.
Family time.
This weather soothes and refreshes and restores.
Narc neighbors.
Actually the most powerful force in the universe is perspective.
I have got to do something about the way I look.
Lights, glitter, and dreams for the soul.
Magical moments.
Only to be destroyed by you, unfortunately.
Wanderlust.
I shouldn’t have texted you.
I guess I just feel like I’m missing out.
Someday, somehow, I’m gonna make it alright but not right now.
Jealousy is red.
Am I just someone from the past?
That was so manic.
We’ll never feel so safe again, but love always remains.
