On The Inside.: Archive

Almanac

Almanac I don’t deserve this, and it won’t be like this forever. His fist is big but my gun’s bigger. He wants a fight, well now he’s got one and he ain’t seen me crazy yet. She’s got a Rock N’ Roll side when you get her agitated. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I’d settle for a slowdown. This storm speaks...

Oct 28th

Jun 30th

Fuck him.

Excuse my language.

Jun 17th

My emotions and stance in life is so easily swayed, my God. Can I depend on myself at all? I am indecisiveness at it’s finest. I’ve never had so much reason to like you, and I already do. I’m not sure if it’ll ever stop. Oh and you like me too. That makes me happy.

Jun 16th

Is it bad that I wish you could sneak into my room one night and just cuddle with me?

Jun 7th

Well someone made a really impactful point recently and it was basically this:

Jun 6th

You know, feel free to come back to this thought, but I just want to say this: I find it kind of strange that I must force myself to fall out of love with the father of my child. And that he has to fall out of love with me. I mean he’s far from perfect, but if only he could embrace those good aspects of him. The happy ones. I just really like happy. I know what you’re saying, but...

Jun 6th

my own sweat and tea.

May 30th

This hurts. I miss you.

May 25th

God of Wonders.

I need to stop fearing people, and start fearing the Lord. Time to read my bible before I go to sleep. Time to start keeping a journal. Time to pray out loud. Time to start changing my appearance. Time to start putting my all in everything I do. And most of all, time to start trusting God with everything I am.

May 23rd

Yeah, the friendship is inevitable, and that’s okay. It’s early and there are common grounds. You’re feelings, and his feelings, are inevitable. Stop overthinking everything, and just keep doing what you need to do. Crack open that bible, too, if you will. But make sure you take that pole out of your eye while you do. Tennessee dreaming, forever.

May 22nd

“Never underestimate The power of… He could bring me to my knees Though I never saw just what he sees I was callin’ out for him He never turned I was callin’ out for him I never learned” - The Pierces

May 21st

The reasons that I can’t stay don’t have a thing to do with being in love.

May 19th

Scar Tissue

I remember that day, and I remember being so angry that I didn’t even know what to do with myself. I realize that I still loved him then. I mean, I even resorted to Tell Me Baby and I reserve those soley for the worst of conflicts. I was screaming, I was throwing, I was crying. But, I realize that I still loved him then. And I remember when he asked me why I wouldn’t break up with him,...

May 14th

Show me Your glory.

God, help me to acknowledge You in every aspect of my life. I need you, and I realize this now more than ever. I pray I never forget. God please help me create a righteous and christian life for Camden. I know you love me, and I know you love him. And I know you’re watching over us Lord. Help me draw closer to you. Please direct my future, I want to do nothing but what you have planned for...

May 11th

An expression of thought. Just for tonight, darling. Let’s get lost.. Let me come closer. I’m not your chaperon. Is it true that I didn’t date him for two years for no reason? Do I only dwell on the well, only to be reminded of the not so swell? Lately I have a knack of rhyming, but my theory is that it’s because i’ve lost myself. And not the way i’d like...

May 10th

Just write don’t fright it’ll be alright he’s drowning in his delight what a boy what an incompetent boy ahoy! let the ship set it’s sails sail to a new land, where the green grass grows and don’t lose faith in males.

May 10th

I'm truly happy.

God will never give me anything I can’t handle.

Apr 3rd

Tune in Drop out Tune in Get up

Mar 24th

I’m feeling a lot better, and I just want you to know these simple tips while they’re on the tip of my tongue: Don’t listen to any of that jargon you call music, via is where you belong. Try in everything you do, it really pays off. Be sweet, and you’re life will follow suit. Finish what you’ve started. Spend time in the sun. That’s really all, and I...

Mar 24th

Wow. Pink, and suddenly you’re on top of the world. Time for some face time. Interpret that however you see fit.

Mar 17th

Love I

As much as you persist, and as much as maybe I should, I can’t and I won’t. I’m leaving it at that, clearly because I don’t even know much about the situation, except what i’ve already said and done. The sunlight, it really does hurt my eyes. Hustle, bustle and so much muscle Cells about to seperate, oh And I find it hard to concentrate.

Mar 15th

Allusion/Illusion

I can’t believe that I was ever so gullable, I thought weed of all things could solve my problems? You know the problems, the one that control everything you are or ever will be. How could I forget? But what a silly solution. And he? Especially absurd. Please, get a better look at things.

Mar 9th

Regain via:

Dj Okawari Boards of Canada Morcheeba Theivery Corporation Bonobo

Mar 9th

Have A Cigar.

Says you, And that’s not saying much. Weird that I should forget so easily, and that the cold hard truth could come crashing down just as. Stay away from me Please stay far away from me Leave me by my lonely Just let me be Stay away from me Please stay far away from me Leave me by my lonely Just leave me alone Oddly enough though, I feel safe when i’m with you. And I long for you...

Mar 9th

Amber is the color of your energy.

I’ve discovered a solution and it consists of clothes, and more clothes, and accessories. I honestly never realized how uplifiting feeling pretty and coordinated can be. Woah oh, amber is the color of your energy. Oh, and also interior design. Forever.

Feb 17th

Feb 8th